shaoweii’s how to : Be a emo blogger

Hi there! I’m very honored to officially release this ‘series’ in my blog called “shaoweii’s how to :”. What does this basically means its another stupid project by me(that probably would only contain one post inside) sharing what I know from making a sandwich to how to be a better person. And in this premiere series, I’ll be showing you how to be a EMO blogger.

Before everything, we’ll have to know, what is “emo”

An entire subculture of people (usually angsty teens) with a fake personality. The concept of Emo is actually a vicious cycle that never ends, to the utter failing of humanity, and it goes something like this:

1. Girls say they like “sensitive guys” (lie)
2. Guy finds out, so he listens to faggy emo music and dresses like a dork so chicks will see that he is sensitive and not afraid to express himself (lie). He dyes his hair black, wraps himself in a stupid looking scarf, develops an eating disorder, and rants about how “nobody understands”.
3. Now an emo guy, he meets Emo chick and they start dating, talking about how their well-off suburban lifestyles are terrible and depressing (lie)
4. Emo guy is just too much of a pussy. His penis is too small, he’s too depressed to bathe, and has more mood swings than emo chick, and he doesn’t even have a menstrual cycle. Emo chick dumps him, saying “It’s not you, it’s me.” (lie) as she drives off with Wayne, the school jock and captain of the football team.
5. Emo guy goes home and cries, proceeds to write a weak song and strum a single string on his acoustic guitar. Another emo chick sees how he is so in touch with his feelings, and the cycle continues.

This is the sad truth of the emo lifestyle/music, and now that I look at how pathetic it really is, maybe the emos DO have something to cry about!

Source : urban dictionary

TO be an emo blogger, first and foremost you’ll need :

  • A blog
  • A very very very very dark blog
  • A very very very very very very very very black background
  • A very contrast text color, probably something like black background and red text
  • *Blood splatters add 10 points extra

You can’t create a emo blog unless you are emo yourself. So to be a successful emo blogger you first need to turn emo. Make sure first meet the following criteria :

  • You must be single
  • You must have a very terrible breakup – i.e : caught cheating red handed, you stab your ex in the chest and ran away
  • You must hate your life and complain about everything – i.e You hate this world, you wonder why are you even born
  • You must never talk and must have a lot of piercing anywhere, as, each of the piercing marks something “important” in your life – i.e : the bad breakups!
  • You must have long hair. Especially guys

So, now that you’re emo, how to be a emo blogger?

  • Instead of stabbing your ex in the chest, the first thing you do after break up is running back home and blog ! Your blog template shall be something like :
  • Dear blog,Sometimes I wonder. I wonder if you ever have your own feeling. Only you understand me the most. (Insert name here) is a bitch. I hope he/she go to hell. It’s been awhile since I talk to you, my dearest blog, even my teddy bear doesn’t talk to me anymore. Oh, only you feel my pain, my heart is as painful as a big monster truck’s big monster tyre hitting the teddy bear and it’s almost as deep as the ocean.*follow by some emo song lyrics
  • And then what you do after you write these post? You Password Protect it! So that no one will read your little secret. (Even if you didn’t password protect it, no one will read anyway) Your password shall be something like (insert name here) is a bit*ch
  • Think of a sad title as if someone died – i.e : Some emo song title/part of the lyrics extract

Now, there is a few types of emo blogger, yes, just like there’s fast food i.e KFC, McD, even though they are fast food but they are still different.

First up we’ll have a “educated” emo blogger.

To be a educated emo blogger you’ll need

  • Very freaking good english with vocabulary that no one will understand unless they sleep with Oxford dictionary everyday
  • Your post never reveals the name of your *victim*
  • You probably protect most of your post
  • Your post is like a novel, that, even when J.K Rowling will row away.
  • Your post is freaking effin long, and yes, again, no one will read.
  • Then you’ll have emo pics (for eg, the angel above) in between your paragraph
  • Your blog skin probably looks better than the next type of emo blogger

Then we’ll have Ah Beng/Ah Lian emo blogger

  • You can’t write proper english
  • Your blog skin is very ugly, full of blood, red, black, red, and black, and more blood.
  • Most of your post probably do not have paragraph, they’re all in one line! For eg
  • Kannineh lumac*i*bai!! WhY u dO thIs tO Me?!@!!!!!!!!!! yOu sAAyy YouU lovEEEE mee BeFoRRE! YoU Say yoU wiLl nEvER lEAVE Me aLonE anD SEe NoW yOu WitH The MoToR BEnG aNND!!! I Is VeRYyy ANGrRYYY OHHHRRHHH!!! WhY dO yoUUu HaVeE to DO this to Me ORhHH!!!! BABEEEE I sTiLL lOve yOUU! yoUU knOw how MISHHHH YOUU?!! hOW aM I gOIng to LIVeE againn!!!! me LOVE you !!!!!!!!
  • You probably trying to kill yourself after that but you never have to balls to do so

Now that you know the basic, it’s time for you to start your own emo blog !

Additional point :

To get additional point,

  • You need to have a facebook, a myspace, a twitter, a tumblr, a formspring, and whatever social media
  • And you need to spam all the status update with emo post as emo as you can. for e.g : I wish I could kill myself.. or f*ck u bi*ch!!! [insert name here]

It’s simple, it’s free, and it’s fun !


Of Jack Neo & His Movies

Speaking of Jack Neo, I think most of the Malaysia do know who he is, right?

Jack Neo Chee-Keong (born 24 January 1960), PBM, credited as Jack Neo on screen, is a Singaporean film and television actor, host and director. He is best known for his cross-dressing roles, as Liang Po-Po (literally: Granny Liang) in the 1999 film Liang Po Po: The Movie and as Liang Ximei in the late 1990s TV show Comedy Night.

Source : wikipedia

Of course, who would forget “Money Not Enough” when it was released in 1998? Wow, i was just 7 that time ! The film is about three friends with various financial struggles, who start a car polishing business together. The story line is so original, and the language is funny, especially during that time (and especially when I’m only 7!)

And then, the Liang Po Po came out in 1999, another one movie that stuck into most of the teenager’s brain (I think? No?). Well maybe just my school lah, everyone was talking about the movie that time. Do you still remember the “wuu wuuu wuu” ? Haha! But, watching that again, I don’t feel funny anymore, maybe the humor just work for that era, or maybe, I’m a grown up already. Anyhow, the movie is still one of the classic from Jack Neo.

And then, also one of Jack Neo’s famous film, “I Not Stupid” released in 2002. That’s one of the movie that touched a lot’s heart and that’s the kind of movie that really speaks out what really happening, among parents and their expectation to their son.

The film portrays the lives, struggles, and adventures of three Primary 6 pupils who are placed in the academically inferior EM3 stream (which, as a result of parliamentary debates following the release of the film, was abolished in 2008). This satirical comedy criticises the Singaporean education system and social attitudes in Singapore, including the competitive kiasu (fear of losing) mentality and over-obedience to authority.

I used to feel so motivated after watched the movie but it only lasts for err.. 2 weeks? Ok maybe just 7 days。:P

Then in 2004 there’s this The Be$t Bet,

The film portrays the lives, struggles and adventures of three friends who are addicted to gambling. They place a joint 4D bet; when they win, one is tempted to keep all the winnings to himself. This satirical comedy touches on gambling addiction and the consequences of one’s actions.

Now in my opinion, that’s where the movie starting to get “lame” instead of funny. There’s still a few funny scene but most of it, I don’t really like it at all.

I not stupid too (2).

I Not Stupid Too portrays the lives, struggles and adventures of three Singaporean youths—15-year-old Tom, his 8-year-old brother Jerry and their 15-year-old friend Chengcai—who have a strained relationship with their parents. The film explores the issue of poor parent-child communication.

TO be honest, I don’t remember any scene from this movie, at all. Maybe it’s …. not interesting??

Just Follow Law (2007)

In the film, a blue-collar technician and the events and promotion department director swap souls after a freak accident at a fictional government agency Work Allocation Singapore (WAS). It presents a satirical look at the inflexibility of outdated governmental rules and regulations and the rigid mindsets of local civil servantswho follow rules to a fault is portrayed.

Actually, another boring, lame, movie.

Ah Long Pte Ltd (2008)

Boring, boring, lame, stupid, not funny, boring story line. But eh, I like the Mini cooper part if you know what I’m talking about. Haha

Money No Enough 2 (2008)
Man.. I’m running out word to write.. because.. there’s nothing interesting about this anymore… NO..

Love Matters (2009)


Where got ghost (2009)

This is kinda interesting, The film is made up of three omnibus horror tales laced with Singaporean humour. In sequence, they are “Roadside Got Ghost”“Forest Got Ghost” and “House Got Ghost”. But most of the stuff are, “predicted”

And now, the latest Being Human (2010)

This is such a bigg disappointment, boring story line, boring character, boring jokes, lame jokes, what happened to the original funny Jack Neo?

Or maybe he’s never funny before…

Just my two puluh sen.

Life Update #1

Hello! It’s been awhile since I update this blog, so I think it might be good to update this with what’s happening with my life now. Anyway like anyone care. Well what I have to say so far is, life’s should be good so far.

By the way, do you like my new theme? Nice leh! Haha. Say say say you like it please?

Oh ya! Worked for an India telecommunication company called iDea’s company conference.

The Midas Venice

The famous and awesome L-Acoustic dV-DOSC in action

All of the wireless microphone are in use!

Work was great, but it was tiring. Got called the day before.

“Would you like to come? it’s at Prince Hotel and you can come tonight at 12am. We’ll be setting up for the whole night”

So I went and, yes, everything that he said is true, we really set up for the whole night (it’s normal I guess)

We set up from 12am to 10:30am, and then I get to go back and shower, sleep for 1 hour, feeling so tired physically and mentally, and then off for the event at 1pm again. It was good experience tho !

After that 3 days work I suppose to have another RTM show, but I rejected that and went back hometown, to help out my dad. He have so many projects coming up and luckily I made the right choice. Over here there’s not much experienced worker and most of them do not even know how to set up properly. It’s a government installation project, so I can’t risk it and I’ll have to help my dad out!

That’s why I rejected a few more work coming up for me. I not sure if it’s a good thing, I know, I should have just stay there and just accept all the work that came to me – but hey, I think, helping out my dad is the most important thing I should do, and, chances are always there..

Why am I feeling like “ka ki kong, ka ki song” (meaning say for ownself fun)

ICOM is staring new semester soon! 😦 And I really miss all the fun I had there..

The famous Simon Pose™

The croc, the car, and the sheep 😛

Wow I never knew I’m so childish 😛

Wendy the Pity Pretty & the Toys

Really miss all the fun time! The MML, the people, the dinner after college, the dinner after recording, One Stop Cafe, ahhh, 😦 Well, never mind, life goes on, right? But I still miss the time lah……

And hey !

I’m going to Universal Studio !

It already sounds fun by just saying it, right? Haha. Hope I don’t have any work on August 1 tho.

Hey! Don’t kill Mr. Octopus please. Although I admit that I’m not a football fan, and yes, why do I care eh? Don’t care lah. Haha

Guys, check out Wong Fu Productions! With just 3 guys the stuff that they can do is really.. amazing! See that’s the kind of thing that make me really really wanted to do video… Haha.. Maybe I should start………..

And oh, check out their new web series, “Funemployed” that’s so so nice 🙂

I think lately I’m very outdated, I never watch Karate Kid, A-Team, Toy Story, and whatever. Wah! Who wanna date me for movie? 😦

Don’t know what else to write anymore…

Till next time,


dear blog

Finding Your Calling : Discovering Your Vocation

Your True Vocation=Your Gifts+Your Passion

As we’ve discussed so far, your calling is not one specific magical job out there, but rather your unique talents, gifts, and capabilities-the things within you that you bring to a job. Thus, different jobs can tap into your vocation to different degrees. A job may use your gifts 50% of the time or 90% of the time. Finding your true vocation means finding work that utilizes your gifts in the 75-100% range. How do you go about doing that?

I think this “formula” is helpful:

True Vocation=Your Gifts+Your Passion

You can be in a job where you get to use your gifts, but not use them for a purpose you feel passionate about. Or you can be working in an area you’re passionate about, but in a job that doesn’t employ your unique gifts. The ideal is to have a job that uses your talents in the service of something you’re passionate about. Here are some examples of what this could look like for a man:

  • David’s gifts are for inspiring people and leadership, and his passion is for football. His true vocation might be becoming a football coach.
  • Joe’s gifts are in teaching and researching, and his passion is history. His true vocation might be becoming a history professor.
  • Dan’s gifts are in resolving disputes, and his passion is for making divorces more amicable for the partners and easier on kids. His true vocation might be becoming a divorce lawyer who concentrates on peaceful mediation.
  • Alex’s gifts are in investigating things, and his passion is for animals and the outdoors. His true vocation might be becoming a game warden.
  • Tyler’s gifts are in selling things and making deals, and his passion is for books. His true vocation might be becoming a literary agent.
  • Blake’s gifts are in crunching numbers, and his passion is for politics. His true vocation might be becoming the state treasurer.
  • Dave’s gifts are in language, and his passion is for Japan and Japanese culture. His true vocation might be becoming a translator in Japan.

You might be passionate about a cause, an area of the world, a sport, or a product. But you can also be passionate about a lifestyle or an ideal or a tradition. A man who has a gift for fixing things and working with his hands, might be passionate about the idea of craftsmanship and find his vocation as a carpenter. A man who has a gift for cutting hair, giving shaves, and offering easy conversation, and a passion for the tradition of barbering, should easily know what his vocation is! A man whose father and grandfather were police officers and who is passionate about carrying on the family tradition would do well to follow in their footsteps. A man whose gifts are in entrepreneurship and who is passionate about working at home might find his vocation in developing web projects. A man with gifts for leadership and courage and who is passionate about the ideals of country, service, and sacrifice might find his true vocation in the military.

Finding Your Birthright Gifts

Of course in order to use the above “formula,” you need to know the passions and capabilities to plug into it.

As we discussed in Part I, your “birthright gifts” are your unique talents, gifts, capabilities, and purposes-the seeds of things you were born to do. You may believe that the seeds were planted there by the chances of biology or purposefully by God. And they’re not so much things you seek as things you rediscover.

In Let Your Life Speak, Parker J. Palmer argues:

“Vocation does not come from willfulness. It comes from listening. I must listen to my life and try to understand what it is truly about-quite apart from what I would like it to be about-or my life will never represent anything real in the world, no matter how earnest my intentions…..Before I can tell my life what I want to do with it, I must listen to my life telling me who I am. I must listen for the truths and values at the heart of my own identity, not the standards by which I must live-but the standards by which I cannot help but live if I am living my own life.”

Trying to find your true life’s work without understanding what your birthright gifts are is like trying to grow a garden without any idea of what seeds have been planted in the soil. You wouln’t know how to bring the seeds to fruition-how much water and sunlight the plants needed and how to care for them. Tending to the garden willy nilly would result in a barren harvest or plants that sprouted haphazardly and then quickly wilted away.

Finding your vocation thus means understanding exactly what seeds lie within you so that you are prepared to cultivate them to their fullest expression.

Tuning Into Your Signal

Your birthright gifts are like tiny radio transmitters that came buried within you when you were born and have been sending out signals ever since. As a kid you were probably very in tune with these signals-knowing what you liked and didn’t like came pretty easily.

But over time, the signal gets dimmer and dimmer, smothered by the increasing noise we’re bombarded with as we grow up. We pick up static everywhere we go-from the things we watch on tv, read in magazines, and hear from ministers, parents, and friends. Pretty soon our own signal, lost in a cacophony of voices, gets hard to hear.

Tuning back into this inner signal is the key to finding your vocation. Dr. Abraham Maslow argued:

“Recovering the self must, as a sine qua non, include the recovery of the ability to have and to cognize these inner signals, to know what and whom one likes and dislikes, what is enjoyable and what is not, when to eat and when not to, when to sleep, when to urinate, when to rest. The experientially empty person, lacking these directive from within, these voices of the real self, must turn to outer cues for guidance, for instance eating when the clock tells him to, rather than obeying his appetite…He guides himself by clocks, rules, calendars, schedules, agendas, and by hints and cues from other people.”

So much of our lives are dictated by external cues that we probably don’t even think about it. We wake up not when our bodies want to but when the alarm clock sounds. We eat lunch at noon and pizza while watching the game not because we’re necessarily hungry but because that is our company’s lunch hour and our game day ritual. We match our mood to the mood of whatever social group we find ourselves in. Our day’s activities come not from the heart but from a to-do list. There are men who if you gave them the day off to do whatever they wished, would be stumped as to how to fill the time.

Following some external signals is key to getting along in the world (showing up in a velvet jumpsuit to a job interview may be what your inner signal longs for, but it probably won’t land you the job). But they also end up distancing ourselves from who we actually are in areas of more importance than dress. Like your vocation.

Tuning into our inner signals need not mean traveling to India to study yoga at an ashram. It’s simply a matter of taking the time to carefully adjust our bunny ears until we hear the signal again loud and clear. This simply involves taking some time out for quiet moments of reflection.
As Palmer insightfully put it:

“The soul is like a wild animal-tough, resilient, savvy, self-sufficient, and yet exceedingly shy. If we want to see a wild animal, the last thing we should do is to go crashing through the woods, shouting for the creature to come out. But if we are willing to walk quietly into the woods and sit silently for an hour or two at the base of the tree, the creature we are waiting for may well emerge, and out of the corner of an eye we will catch a glimpse of the precious wildness we seek.”

Stop multitasking and filling your life with constant noise. Don’t look at your laptop while you eat; don’t turn on the radio the minute you get in the car; don’t read a magazine when you’re on the john. If you allow them space, the signals will come  to you during your most ordinary activities, like washing the dishes.

Work on being honest with yourself about your motivations for doing the things you do. Do you really enjoy x,y, and z, or are you doing those things to please other people? You can do things for pleasure or do things out of obligation, but you should have the self-awareness to know when you’re doing which.

Pray. Meditate. Take walks without your ipod. Make time for activities that quiet and settle the mind.

Taking the time to tune into your inner signals will help your personal growth all around. To specifically hone in on the signal of your birthright gifts and passions, set aside some quiet time to just sit and think. I highly recommend getting out into the wilderness where you are sure not to be distracted. And then ask yourself these questions:

  • As a boy, what did you love to do? Write? Read? Sports? Working on models? Playing with a chemistry set? Spending time outdoors? Pretending to be a solider or a spy?
  • During school group projects, what job did other students assign to you, or did you volunteer for?
  • What aspects of your current job do you love, which do you loathe?
  • What kinds of projects and jobs at work and at home do you get excited about? What kinds do you dread?
  • Have you ever talked to a friend about a topic, a dream, or an aspiration and everything just clicked inside of you, and you felt a surge of excitement throughout your body?
  • What things do you see other people doing that make you ache with jealousy because you wish you were doing them?
  • What issues get you really fired up?
  • What dream has nagged at you for as long as you can remember, the thing that always pops into your mind no matter how many times you dismiss it?
  • What fills your thoughts in the quiet moments when you’re riding the train or lying in bed? What do you think about incessantly, what captures your imagination? Politics? Spirituality? Relationships?
  • If time, money, education and any other obstacle was a non-issue, what kind of work would you choose to do?
  • What were you doing the last time you totally lost track of time?

I leave you to ponder on these questions. I think the answers will come clearly for most men. And I believe that most men know deep down what their calling is, what they really wish to do in life. The truly hard part is overcoming the obstacles and rationalizations we have for not following our callings. Explaining what these obstacles are will be the topic of the final part of this series.


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This is for you, Mr Vinay

If you were to ask me two greatest man in my life, the first one of course would be my dad. The second one, of course, is my (actually our) beloved lecturer, Mr Vinay.

(Me, Mr Vinay, Amanda)

I’m writing this for you, Mr Vinay, the one of the guy who inspired and teach me stuff that I never imagine myself knowing.

Today, 18 Jun 2010 marks the day you leave this country, hopefully for good and I’m sure that the future path you took will all go well for you. I’m so so so so so regret that I never get to meet with you the for the last time but hey, that’s not all that matters, all that matters is that, from the bottom of my heart you’re the one I truly respect and look upon to. Who knows, one day we might meet again, as, you know, we’re still in this small field – it’s a small world !

Mr Vinay,

You’re seriously one of a kind (that also means, get a real wife already!) (p/s : no more rich Indian girl in Macau :P). Not only you taught me what I need to know in audio engineering, you taught me becoming a better person, you taught me how to survive in this industry. I mean, which lecturer do that? It’s truly an honor I would say, or it’s a blessing, that I got such a awesome teacher to teach. I’m lucky that you taught me throughout my 3 semester (1 and a half year) in ICOM. You know what’s the difference between you and others ? It’s your passion to teach ! And I can see that through how much you willing to share what you know with us.

I won’t forget every single stuff you told us.

The last day in class, Mr Vinay, you said that,

  • Everyone is blessed with talents, be in it sharp ears, quick trouble shooting, or everything, all of us is blessed with talents.
  • You told us to work hard, work hard, work hard, and get better with what we do. I can’t counts how many time you mentioned the word “work hard” , and yes, I promised to myself that I’m gonna work hard, work hard and work harder for myself, to get better in what I do best.
  • We all had passion, that’s what all lead us here (International College of Music). And then you asked us what’s our passion. Be it the passion for music, sound engineering, recording, what ever, or even passion to watch pretty girls 😛 You told us to combine the passion which brought us here, with the talent that we all had, and then, yes, again, work hard, work hard and work harder.
  • So what’s left in the last “ingredient” ? It’s commitment. So, talents + work hard + passion + commitment + work harder . That’s what you left me with, I promised that I would never forget that no matter where I end up working.

Everyone, got it?  And that’s not all that you said.

You said that

  • We all yes, have passion, and we all have a lots of stuff we want to do, but life is not like that. From all the passion and all the stuff that we want to do, sort it down, narrow it down, and be good in that particular thing that we choose, I guess that means you don’t want us to be jack of all trades, master of none. Am I right?
  • We all had our strength in some area, and yes, admit that, we all had our weaknesses. You told us to know our own strength, work harder on it, and our weakness? Do not be afraid to see our own weakness. In fact work hard on that ! Yes, it still goes back to work hard.
  • There’s phases in life. We all go thru phases, and to be successful, we have to go there, and what’s the secret to get there? hard work !!
  • Stay humble, be humble !
  • Have fun! I remember the “plan” you said Mr vinay !! I’m 19 this year. 20-30 is the time for me to work hard and get better in what I do. 30-40 should be the time for me to become better and master what I do. 40 – 50 ?  Touch up on what I do, and get really good in what I do. Mr vinay, that sounds like a plan !! Tho I’m gonna marry a girl when I turned 30 😛

I would never forget all that you taught me, and I will, work very hard, I will stay humble, and of course, I will enjoy what I do !

I hope that the next time I meet you, I’m good in what I do and I hit the goal I set for myself, and, I hope that, the next time I meet you, you’re married (ok la at least you have a girl friend) or maybe you already have kids! Hahahaha

You’re awesome.

Thanks, thanks for teaching me, thanks for sharing your knowledge with me, and thanks, for teaching me how to become a better person!

Still trying to get rid of all the words you said to me from my mind,


Band Competition : Day 2

I’m effin tired today!

Let me tell you how the production schedule looks like (which never exist, anyway)

We’re suppose to start from 9am to 6pm.

So here’s what they do :

8-9am : Everyone start coming and set up

9-10am : Make up, dress up

11am : Start to rehearse

11am – 12pm : 1 episode, intro shoot

12pm – 1pm : Realized that they have limited time for five (5) episode to shoot today, they start to hurry up a little bit. Just a little bit

12pm – 3pm : Finish one and a half episode , slowly, taking their own sweet time

3pm – 3:45pm : Lunch break

3:45 pm – 5pm : Continue shooting, hurry up even more

5pm – 5:30pm : Knowing that they need to more time, started shouting and started to rush thing up to normal speed i expect them to shoot like

5:30pm – 6:00pm : even faster

6:00pm : Ask for permission to go on longer (suppose to leave now, and they will continue shooting if we didnt stop them)

6:15pm : Get the permission, and 2 hour limit.


Why can’t they just ..

work faster and more efficient?

Spoil my mood to blog.. a lot to talk about ..


Not very happy because missed mr vinay’s farewell dinner,


Band Competition : Day 1

So I was called by my college, to supervise the shooting of this upcoming TV Program called 1 Band 1 Malaysia, which is going to be aired on RTM. I took this job as the pay was considered good and to get myself busy (as I’m still, up till this moment, jobless).

I was asked to just provide system support and to deal with the engineer if they need any extra equipment or help.

Day 0, which is the set up day, I went there to check out the props team set up the stage, which I’m actually impressed by what they came out with! New backdrop, new stage floor, everything was so efficient. That’s not my main concern tho, my concern of course, is the sound system. The ‘engineer’ never show up (they suppose to have their own engineer) and the last time I spoke the the Production Manager, he said they actually have no engineer and asked if I could help.

I would love to, actually. I agreed and set up the drum set and guitar amps, but still not knowing what will happen next. Note that this is still Day 0, which actually is yesterday.

So of course I set myself a target, and I do expect something from that, before everything begun, I expect

  • Stressful environment, everyone rushing, director and producer shouting everywhere
  • Recording engineer shouting at me asking for more levels
  • Someone might just walk pass and just throw eggs at me saying what a bad mix it was

Well, might as well expect the bad as, well, it’s a TV production, I expect something very professional from them.

It turn out to be..

The other way round. The recording engineer? Instead of getting every single channels direct out from me, he asked for my Master Output, and, they only ask for Mono.

For you who don’t know, normal recording (even in ICOM Friday performance) , the engineer will record every single channel separately, for eg, we’ll record kick drum, snare, guitar, bass , etc separately so that we could mix better for the recording. Taking a master output meaning just taking whatever being mixed from the board. What if .. you would like to work on, let’s just say the guitar alone? Sorry, you can’t

So indirectly, it basically means that whatever I mix, it will end up in RTM. (Well of course they’ll have post production, maybe someone will master the mix, MAYBE, I don’t know because they’re actually recording to tapes. video tapes. I’m effin serious)

Putting that aside (maybe I’m asking for too much), the whole production team is very nice to work with! Nice, funny, humble people !

Day 1

Check out the stuff I’m gonna mix yo! Most of them I don’t even heard of it..

Today’s progress seems slow, they’re suppose to shoot 4 episode a day, and they only managed to shoot 3, and it’s working over time. We’re suppose to work from 9am-6pm, somehow today the show dragged till 9pm.

Anyway the mix was fine, nothing much as the source (err..) is.. (err..) . It’s up to your imagination how you want to fill up that (err). I like sapir tho!

The sound was so unique, and the tone is nice ! I hope I took picture tho.. Actually I did.. But i’m lazy.

I’m dead tired. Let’s see how it goes tomorrow..

Finding Your Calling : Why Pursue a Vocation?

Why should a man pursue a vocation? Is it really a worthwhile endeavor? Shouldn’t a man be satisfied to work any job that supports his family and allows him to earn a living? Is striving to find your vocation a selfish pursuit?

Today, I will set out to answer those questions and make a case for why the pursuit of one’s vocation should be absolutely paramount in every man’s life. In doing so, I will really be arguing for a broader philosophy of life, of which vocation is one vital part.

Self-Actualization and the Purpose of Life

What is the purpose of life? It is a question as old as time and one that has been answered in too many ways to list. I would like to suggest one answer that I strongly subscribe to.

I believe that one of the greatest purposes of this life is to grow and develop to the greatest extent possible, to be tested, to stretch your capabilities to the limit, to maximize all of your potential, in short, and please excuse the cliched phrase, to become all that you can be.

This quest to become “godlike” can fit within and complement most faiths. For the Christian it is a recognition of the divine potential of each individual. C.S Lewis said:

“It is a serious thing to live in a society of possible gods and goddesses, to remember that the dullest and most uninteresting person you talk to may one day be a creature which, if you saw it now, you would be strongly tempted to worship…There are no ‘ordinary’ people. You have never talked to a mere mortal.”

For the atheist, endeavoring to explore and expand their capacities can become the overarching purpose of life. Friedrich Nietzsche said, “He who has a why to live can bear almost any how.”

In an age of anomie, living to become all that we can is an incredibly powerful why for every man.

Famous psychologist Abraham Maslow called this maximizing of our potential “self-actualization,” the process by which people could attain “full humaness.” “What a man can be, he must be,” he said. Maslow’s writings on this subject are incredibly insightful and as I cannot hope to improve upon them, I shall quote from the good doctor extensively here.

Maslow argued that:

“In practically every human being…there is an active will toward health, an impulse toward growth, or toward the actualization of human potentialities. But at once we are confronted with the very saddening realization that so few people make it…even in a society like ours which is relatively one of the most fortunate on the face of the earth. This is our great paradox….This is our new way of approaching the problem of humanness, ie. with an appreciation of its highest possibilities and simultaneously a deep disappointment that these possibilities are so infrequently realized. This attitude contrasts with the “realistic” acceptance of whatever happens to be the case, and then regrading that as the norm…We tend to get into the situation in which…this normalcy or averageness is the best we can expect, and that therefore we should be content with it. From the point of view that I have outlined, normalcy would be rather the kind of sickness or crippling or stunting that we share with everybody else and therefore don’t notice.”

As a prerequisite to accepting the idea that self-actualization is one of the grand purposes of life, one must accept this notion that every human possesses an impulse towards growth. If you do not accept this proposition, than the rest of what we lay out today will not find purchase with you. If you do accept this idea, then it rightly follows that true fulfillment will come from maximizing this growth, and conversely, being content with averageness will rob us of the kind of transcendent satisfaction and happiness that could have been possible. Maslow cautioned:

If you deliberately plan on being less than you are capable of being, then I warn you that you’ll be deeply unhappy for the rest of your life. You will be evading your own capacities, your own possibilities.

Self-Actualization and Vocation

Maslow posited that attaining self-actualization:

“proceeds inevitably via awareness of one’s identity (among other things). A very important part of this task is to become aware of what one is, biologically, temperamentally, constitutionally, as a member of a species, of one’s capacities, desires, needs, and also of one’s vocation what one is fitted for, what one’s destiny is.”

That latter step, working at a vocation, was something Maslow observed in every single self-actualized person he encountered, without a single exception. He found that self-actualized persons were deeply devoted to a cause outside themselves, a work which they felt called to do and which brought them great joy.

Now many men have the erroneous idea that finding your vocation means doing something that will make you rich and famous-becoming a rock star or writing the great American novel. And the idea of self-actualization may feed into this misconception. So we should point out here that everyone’s potentialities will max out at different levels. The important thing is simply to push yourself to wherever those limits are for you personally. Self-actualization is a highly individual thing-your best is not another man’s best.

Remember, vocation is not your job, it’s what you bring to your job-your unique gifts and talents. So self-actualization is about finding the opportunities that will allow you to exercise your talents and use your capabilities to the fullest extent possible.

Getting More Practical

Thinking about the goal of maximizing all of my potential really gets me fired up and motivated about life. It’s an idea that honestly pulls me out of depressive funks and helps get me going again.

But I realize that not every man is into this kind of philosophy/psychology business. So I wanted to put in a section with more practical reasons for why pursuing a vocation is important.

Health and happiness. Ignoring your vocation can cause anxiety, restlessness, and depression. Using your talents and gifts brings a sense of satisfaction and fulfillment that cannot be duplicated. It is also increases your peak experiences and opportunities for flow.

True, I know men, and I’m sure you do too, you are working in jobs that don’t fit them at all in order to make a living, and outwardly they put on a fairly happy face. But I often see an anger in these men emerge in less guarded moments-in road rage, heavy drinking, and resentment towards others. It can just eat at you inside, literally. More heart attacks occur on Monday morning than at any other time; men return to jobs they loathe and their blood pressure soars.

Greater success. We often associate vocations with jobs in which people barely scrape by, but still stick with it because of their love for the work. That’s surely sometimes the case, but doing what you love can truly be the path to your greatest success. In an interview with the NYT, the CEO of The Onion (now that’s a fun job) was asked what advice he would give to someone just graduating from college. He said:

“Find what you really love to do and then go after it-relentlessly. And don’t fret about the money. Because what you love to do is quite likely what you’re good at. And what you’re good at will likely bring you financial reward eventually. I’ve seen too many people who have plotted a career, and often what’s behind it is nothing other than a stack of dollar bills. You need to be happy in order to be good, and you need to be good to succeed. And when you succeed, there’s a good chance you’ll get paid.”

Freedom and Frugality. For a man who has found his true vocation, the line between work and joy/life is completely erased. His work is his play and his play is his work. Things like money, salary, vacation, hobbies, entertainment, and amusement thus lose their meaning.

Staying in a dead end job is often seen as the more practical choice, but there is an irresistible practicality to the idea of vocation as well. The man in the job he hates may sometimes make more money, but he also spends more money, trying to buy things and experiences that will make up for how miserable he is at work. He has to do what doesn’t make him happy to earn money to pay for things that do. In contrast, the man in a vocation is the truly frugal man. He’s not living for the next vacation; he doesn’t need a big screen tv to make him happy; he’s not paying a shrink and a doctor to tend to his diminishing mental and physical health. He doesn’t need much to get by and that’s true freedom.

Service, Duty and Responsibility

So far we’ve talked a lot about you and what you want to do with your life. But shouldn’t your vocation also serve others and improve the world? How do you balance your desire for self-actualization with your duties and responsibilities in life?

Thankfully these things ideally go hand in hand. When you’re a whole man, when your inward self is united with your outward self, when your inner desires are united with your outer actions, that is when you can truly be of service to the world. Maslow calls this the ideal meeting of inner requiredness (“I want to”) with outer requiredness (“I must”). Or as Frederick Buechner puts it, “The place God calls you to is the place where your deep gladness and the world’s deep hunger meet.”

Living falsely, forcing your square peg into a round hole, not only hurts you, but hurts those you love and those you work with and for. Everyone knows the frustration of being on a team with a guy who’s there because he feels he “ought” to be or “should” be, but has no heart for it. He goes through the motions but pulls everyone down. The Sufi poet Rumi wisely advised such a man, “If you are here unfaithfully with us, you’re causing terrible damage.”

Seeking your vocation is not selfish; robbing the world of what you could have done with your gifts and talents is.

All this being said, I personally believe that duty and responsibility come before personal passions. It is not manly to leave your family because you have suddenly decided that being in a traveling circus is your true calling or quit your job to go to film school when there’s a mortgage to be paid.

As Edward Howard Griggs put it in “Vocation and Avocation,” “The way to a larger opportunity is never meanly sneaking out from under the little duty of to-daybut climbing bravely through it and off the top; and then the better chance usually comes.” You may need to moonlight in a second job until you can quit your day job; you may need to find the expression of your talents in your avocation; you may simply need to find more opportunities in your current job that allow you to use your unique strengths. A determined man who knowshow to hustle can find a responsible way to balance his duties and his passions.

Fathers sometimes rationalize working in a job they hate so that they can allow their kids to follow their dreams. The problem here is that their fathers often said the same thing, and their fathers before that. Someone has to break the chain. A father must model what he wishes his children to become. If you don’t want your kids to play it small, then why are you?

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I should be..


I should be working right now.

Probably anticipating what would happen next.

Probably had the best time in my life

Probably love my “job” even more.

I’m home today.

I need to get my job real soon.

After langkawi perhaps. I need to get my ass off and find me a freaking job.

Still jobless,


Tribute to U2 Concert : General Overview

Finally tribute is over ! Well actually finally college is over, tribute is done long time ago. I’m done with all the assignments, exam, and it’s time to go out and shine. I finally decide to write a new category called “Concerts & Events” and what’s inside ? Well obviously it’s all about sound geek, everything I know about setting up, hooking, interconnecting, mixing a live event and concerts & events that I’ve attended or mixed !

I hope to cover more when I learn more in the future. So to mark the start of this category, I’ll write an overview about Tribute to U2 concert.

ICOM organize a tribute concert every semester to a particular musician or band they choose every semester to pay tribute to their music and to allow student to have a platform to learn about their music and put off a show for the public. Well of course it also allow us, the production student get to involve with the production department.

I’m automatically called on board the production team as I joined the previous tribute concert, where they pay tribute to the late king of pop – Michael Jackson. Miqi was called to be the FOH engineer and she’s also the Technical Director. I am the crew chief and the system engineer for this concert and I would have to work very closely with Miqi to ensure the show and sound checks run smoothly. The very first task we got turned out to be the hardest part for the whole concert (at least to me) – searching the right crew.

When we started to look for crew, only a few person came across my mind, one of them is Kenny, who I’m very unsure of doing the job well (but in the end doing a great job!) and Marcel. Knowing Marcel, I always knew that if I were to assign task to him he would complete it well and when I first speak to him about joining the production team, he said no as he’s involved with work outside. Only few days before we start the first few soundcheck, he took my offer and I am seriously relieved knowing that my team is sufficient to run the show.

And well that is nothing like outside world, looking for crew and all, but at least I get to train my leadership, to train and to handle a team together. I guess a team of two is fine to start with, no ? 😛

So, all aboard now ! Let’s see who we have :

(top L – R : Nilesh, Yee Ven, Lee, Kenny, Me , Sam, Daniel)
(bottom L – R : Omar, Adrienne, Marcel, Miqi, Shan, Dean)

Miqi – Technical Director / FOH

Shaowei – Crew Chief / System Design

Marcel , Kenny – Stage Tech

Dean , Dan – Guitar Tech

Omar – Drum Tech

Yee Ven – Recording Engineer

Samantha – Backstage Manager

Adrienne , Shan – Lightning Engineer

It’s quite a large team compared to the previous tribute concert, but so far it’s the best team I’ve worked with. Please bear in mind that all of us were students and non of us was paid a single cent, well I hope to most of us it doesn’t really matter getting to do what you really enjoy and like ( at least I really enjoyed ).

When we get the whole team ready, the first thing I did with Miqi was to plan a production schedule to ensure we’re doing work according to schedule, including set up to sound check, to tear down, which in the end we actually made some changes last minute. Anyway that I will get to that in other post which will include detailed system set up.

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