Someone Else’s Heart

(Verse 1)
As I lay here on the bed my heart it speaks
I let it beat its beat, you feel the love it leaks
And I can’t describe just how much of it is for you and what you do
But if I could love just one it would be you

All this time, I was broken
Trying to find a love unspoken

And I know ya want the same love,
That I’ve fought so long,
The one we thought was wrong,
And you know I, oh I, need your love
‘Cause we can’t fool ourselves,
into someone else’s heart

(Verse 2)
And the days go on and on and they won’t stop
I feel the pressure, I guess it will never drop
‘Cause every time I think it gets better it gets worse than before
I don’t know what I am doing this all for

All this time, I was broken
Trying to find a love unspoken
And I know ya want the same love,
That I’ve fought so long,
The one we thought was wrong,
And you know I, oh I, need your love
‘Cause we can’t fool ourselves,
into someone else’s heart

Let’s give up the fight
And embrace it
Before we lose the love we’ve found
I know you’re scared to death
But let’s face it
All we have is now


Pooping of wisdom

A little bird was flying south for the Winter. It was so cold the bird froze and fell to the ground into a large field.
While he was lying there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on him.
As the frozen bird lay there in the pile of cow dung, he began to realize how warm he was.
The dung was actually thawing him out!
He lay there all warm and happy, and soon began to sing for joy.
A passing cat heard the bird singing and came to investigate.

Following the sound, the cat discovered the bird under the pile of cow dung, and promptly dug him out and ate him.

Morals of the story:
(1) Not everyone who shits on you is your enemy.
(2) Not everyone who gets you out of shit is your friend.
(3) And when you’re in deep shit, it’s best to keep your mouth shut!

An eagle was sitting on a tree resting, doing nothing. A small rabbit saw the eagle and asked him, “Can I also sit like you and do nothing?”
The eagle answered, “Sure , why not.”
So the rabbit sat on the ground below the eagle and rested.
All of a sudden, a fox appeared, jumped on the rabbit and ate it.

Moral of the story: To be sitting and doing nothing, you must be sitting very, very high up.

A turkey was chatting with a bull. “I would love to be able to get to the top of that tree,” sighed the turkey, “but I haven’t got the energy.”
“Well, why don’t you nibble on some of my droppings?” replied the bull.
“They’re packed with nutrients.”
The turkey pecked at a lump of dung, and found it actually gave him enough strength to reach the lowest branch of the tree.
The next day, after eating some more dung, he reached the second branch.
Finally after a fourth night, the turkey was proudly perched at the top of the tree.

He was promptly spotted by a farmer, who shot him out of the tree.

Moral of the story: Bullshit might get you to the top, but it won’t keep you there.


Five Regrets of the Dying (by palliative care worker)

For many years I worked in palliative care. My patients were those who had gone home to die. Some incredibly special times were shared. I was with them for the last three to twelve weeks of their lives.

People grow a lot when they are faced with their own mortality. I learned never to underestimate someone’s capacity for growth. Some changes were phenomenal. Each experienced a variety of emotions, as expected, denial, fear, anger, remorse, more denial and eventually acceptance. Every single patient found their peace before they departed though, every one of them.

When questioned about any regrets they had or anything they would do differently, common themes surfaced again and again. Here are the most common five:

1. I wish I’d had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.

This was the most common regret of all. When people realise that their life is almost over and look back clearly on it, it is easy to see how many dreams have gone unfulfilled. Most people have had not honoured even a half of their dreams and had to die knowing that it was due to choices they had made, or not made.

It is very important to try and honour at least some of your dreams along the way. From the moment that you lose your health, it is too late. Health brings a freedom very few realize, until they no longer have it.

2. I wish I didn’t work so hard.

This came from every male patient that I nursed. They missed their children’s youth and their partner’s companionship. Women also spoke of this regret. But as most were from an older generation, many of the female patients had not been breadwinners. All of the men I nursed deeply regretted spending so much of their lives on the treadmill of a work existence.

By simplifying your lifestyle and making conscious choices along the way, it is possible to not need the income that you think you do. And by creating more space in your life, you become happier and more open to new opportunities, ones more suited to your new lifestyle.

3. I wish I’d had the courage to express my feelings.

Many people suppressed their feelings in order to keep peace with others. As a result, they settled for a mediocre existence and never became who they were truly capable of becoming. Many developed illnesses relating to the bitterness and resentment they carried as a result.

We cannot control the reactions of others. However, although people may initially react when you change the way you are by speaking honestly, in the end it raises the relationship to a whole new and healthier level. Either that or it releases the unhealthy relationship from your life. Either way, you win.

4. I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.

Often they would not truly realise the full benefits of old friends until their dying weeks and it was not always possible to track them down. Many had become so caught up in their own lives that they had let golden friendships slip by over the years. There were many deep regrets about not giving friendships the time and effort that they deserved. Everyone misses their friends when they are dying.

It is common for anyone in a busy lifestyle to let friendships slip. But when you are faced with your approaching death, the physical details of life fall away. People do want to get their financial affairs in order if possible. But it is not money or status that holds the true importance for them. They want to get things in order more for the benefit of those they love. Usually though, they are too ill and weary to ever manage this task. It is all comes down to love and relationships in the end. That is all that remains in the final weeks, love and relationships.

5. I wish that I had let myself be happier.

This is a surprisingly common one. Many did not realize until the end that happiness is a choice. They had stayed stuck in old patterns and habits. The so-called ‘comfort’ of familiarity overflowed into their emotions, as well as their physical lives. Fear of change had them pretending to others, and to their selves, that they were content. When deep within, they longed to laugh properly and have silliness in their life again.

When you are on your deathbed, what others think of you is a long way from your mind. How wonderful to be able to let go and smile again, long before you are dying.

Life is a choice. It is YOUR life. Choose consciously, choose wisely, choose honestly. Choose happiness.

A mail my dad send me

I am writing this to you because of 3 reasons

1.   Life, fortune and mishaps are unpredictable, nobody knows how long he lives. Some words are better said early.

2. I am your father, and if I don’t tell you these, no one else will.

3.  What is written is my own personal bitter experiences that perhaps could save you a lot of unnecessary heartaches.

Remember the following as you go through life

1. Do not bear grudge towards those who are not good to you. No one has the responsibility of treating you well, except your mother and I. To those who are good to you, you have to treasure it and be thankful, and ALSO you have to be cautious, because, everyone has a motive for every move. When a person is good to you, it does not mean he really likes you. You have to be careful, don’t hastily regard him as a real friend.

2. No one is indispensable, nothing in the world that you must possess.  Once you understand this idea, it would be easier for you to go through life when people around you don’t want you anymore, or when you lose what/who you love most.

3. Life is short. When you waste your life today, tomorrow you would find that life is leaving you. The earlier you treasure your life, the better you enjoy life.

4. Love is but a transient feeling, and this feeling would fade with time and with one’s mood. If your so called loved one leaves you, be patient, time will wash away your aches and sadness. Don’t over exaggerate the beauty and sweetness of love, and don’t over exaggerate the sadness of falling out of love.

5. A lot of successful people did not receive a good education, that does not mean that you can be successful by not studying hard! Whatever knowledge you gain is your weapon in life. One can go from rags to riches, but one has to start from some rags!

6. I do not expect you to financially support me when I am old, either would I financially support your whole life. My responsibility as a supporter ends when you are grown up. After that, you decide whether you want to travel in a public transport or in your limousine, whether rich or poor.

7. You honor your words, but don’t expect others to be so. You can be good to people, but don’t expect people to be good to you. If you don’t understand this, you would end up with unnecessary troubles.

8. I have bought lotteries for umpteen years, but I never strike any prize. That shows if you want to be rich, you have to work hard! There is no free lunch!

9. No matter how much time I have with you, let’s treasure the time we have together. We do not know if we would meet again in our next life.

Your Dad


Father & Son

I miss my family.


The Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveller, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim,

Because it was grassy and wanted wear;

Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay

In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I kept the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way,

I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference

…Robert Frost

I’m going to


Random Rants #3

I’ve been a discovery channel fan .. Well probably since my dad installed astro. Some of the documentary/shows I really like to watch including Deathliest Catch, How Stuff Work, Man vs Wild, Mythbuster, and well alot more. The thing about discovery channel I really like is the commercial.

Before this they had this clip with the theme “The world is just awesome”

And now they have this new “Live Curious” theme, which is very nice! Discovery channel’s commercial is always breath taking!

**** Rants ****

– Finally I’m almost done with the job remaining in Alor Star and heading back to KL next sunday!

– It’s now time to seriously work hard and get better!

– Oh before that I’m going to Singapore on August 1 and I just accepted 1 job on July 31st. Then only now I realized I’m going to Singapore… So I reject it.. yet again. Image  -10.

– Ah, it’s time to journey to a circle of new friends, new environment, and, everything new. =/

– And I miss college and friends so much

– Good bye!

Let’s face it

Been thinking a lot about death lately. Hey FYI this is not about the emo blogger okay? The stories I heard lately, it’s all about death. Maybe it’s because we’re all grown up now and it’s time for us to realize this sad in life?

Let’s face it, sooner or later, we will all eventually, die. Sooner or later, the person you the love will leave us, this is, a part of life. Let’s face it. Yet, we can’t do anything to it, if you believe like how I believe, you’ll know that it’s all destiny. We can’t prevent anything from happening. Right? So what can we do, you ask? That is the question with no answer until lately, I realize. The word is treasure. If we can’t do anything, the only thing that we can do is, treasure every moment! And this my friend, is a lot more easier than it might sound.

I have a very annoying grandpa. I don’t like him. In fact, I used to hate him. Why? Well it’s a family matters so I don’t want to disclose it here. But hey, now that I’m a grown up, I start to understand more. I still don’t like the way he deal with stuff, yes, I still disagree with his thinking, but, hey, no matter what, he’s still my grandpa. What have gotten me into this lately?

My uncle got diagnosed with first stage nose cancer few months back. He was very very lucky to detect that early and still have time to cure. In fact now, he finished all the treatment and now a healthy man 🙂 Only with a few side effect such as tasteless food (but he says its coming back slowly).

And then my dad’s babysitter. The one who cared about our family even until today. Not today tho, she passed away few weeks ago due to A STUPID DOCTOR in a private hospital called PMC (Pergi Mati Cepat). I still remember what me and my friends used to joke about when we’re in secondary school. We said that PMC stands for pergi mati cepat. It’s freaking true. Check out the website if you want to :

The story goes like this.

She met an accident, not a major one, but she still admitted in ICU. After a few operations, there’s this doctor claimed that she’s alright now, and transfer her back to the NORMAL WAD. When she’s in the normal wad, she keeps complaining how painful is the stomach and she asks to switch to another hospital. I can’t remember what reason was that, but the family members says they will transfer her to another hospital in Penang and see they can find out what’s wrong.

But they’re too late.

She died in a NORMAL WAD! The stupid doctor claimed that it’s because of the heart problem. But wtf, she have no heart problem. So they open her up (I forget what’s the term call, duh) and they found out that, (something is wrong with the stomach, again, I forget what’s the term called) and, a operation can save her live.  LIKE WTF??

It’s seriously like, Pergi Mati Cepat.

However, that’s not my main point here.

Because that’s how life is. We’ll never know what we gonna get.

Whatever that happened, it’s meant to be. We can’t do anything much about it. When problems come, instead of crying/sobbing/whining about it, do something. solve the problem. Because Life is 5% what happens and 95% how you react!

And I do believe that, every tomorrow is a better day.



I’m not emo

Installation : Parit Buntar Budget Hotel

Don’t know what’s the name Budget Hotel

When I first heard it was a budget hotel, what first came to my mind was something smaller than the Tune Hotel. But I was wrong. So wrong. This new budget hotel in Parit Buntar, Perak is one big building with nice rooms! This 3 storeys building consist of shop lots at the bottom, a shopping market at the first floor and two floors of more than 80 hotel rooms.

One of the room

So I was there, with my dad, to install Public Address (P.A) system for the entire building, CCTV, MATV (Master Antenna Television), telephone system for all the rooms.

Of course we can’t finish it all in one day. It was a almost two hours drive to get there.

When we first got there, all the cables are a mess (as usual) ! The colourful cables you see, are all the ceiling speakers cable coming from all the storeys and back to this control room. The black cables are for the CCTV and MATV. The first thing we do is to sort the cables out. Anyone with basic electronics knowledge should know that you can’t just “simply connect” everything together. For example, every ceiling speakers is connected with two wire, one which is COM (usually black) and 100V (usually red/light color). The COM is like a shield, and the 100V is the “hot” signal which carries the signal.

So each speaker have their own pair (which is a COM, and a 100V, or hot) and those two must be together. Luckily this wiring man did pair them together, else we’ll have a hard time choosing them out! How to choose them out you ask? Well that consume alot of time, or should I say, luck? It’s trial and error, you take this line and the other one and hear if any of the speaker work. Easy as it seems, but here we’re working in a 3 storey (sometimes even more) building and to trace one ceiling speaker, it’s not easy….

Luckily in this case, we don’t have to trace them but we just need to know where does all the lines go to.

We then lay the cable in the conduit where they will then cover it up. As I say, the building have 3 storey and so we’ll usually divide them into different zones, so that a certain announcement/music can only go to a certain zone.

For that, we’ll need a device called the “Zone Selector” Zone selector basically takes the output power from the power amp, and then distribute them to other zones.

In this case, we have a Pre-Amp (like a mixer), a CD Player, microphone, zone selector, 2 power amps, and a battery charger with battery (big batteries I’m talking about) in case if there’s no electricity, the system can run.

The CD player and microphone are patched into the pre amp, and the output of the pre amp goes to the amp. The first amp then loop the signal output to the other amp. And then, both amp’s speakers output are connected to the Zone Selector’s input. Zone Selector’s output then patched to all the different speaker in different zones.

A battery back up? Easy, just hook up all the devices to the battery charger and when there’s no electricity, it will switch to battery power automatically.

I not sure if it might sounds complicated to you, but that’s the most basic system connection in terms of installation.

So there’s how I divide all the zones. Actually it depends on how the wire goes – it depends on how they wire up all the speakers. TO create every single different zones, you need to wire all the speakers separately, where every different zones need to have different wire coming back to the control room, instead of just looping all of the ceiling speakers. Perhaps a diagram would be good to explain all this.. but I’m lazy to draw a diagram….

Usually the process will be very fast, as all the device is pre-installed to the rack before we send them to the venue. The one that takes time probably would be tracing where the wires go and how they wire the whole building. We’re lucky to get a wireman who actually knows what they are doing this time, so that save up alot of time !

That’s probably the simplest connection ever.. I hope I’ll get to do more complicated installation soon. COm’onn I need more challenge !!