Someone Else’s Heart

(Verse 1)
As I lay here on the bed my heart it speaks
I let it beat its beat, you feel the love it leaks
And I can’t describe just how much of it is for you and what you do
But if I could love just one it would be you

(Pre-Chorus)
All this time, I was broken
Trying to find a love unspoken

(Chorus)
And I know ya want the same love,
That I’ve fought so long,
The one we thought was wrong,
And you know I, oh I, need your love
‘Cause we can’t fool ourselves,
into someone else’s heart

(Verse 2)
And the days go on and on and they won’t stop
I feel the pressure, I guess it will never drop
‘Cause every time I think it gets better it gets worse than before
I don’t know what I am doing this all for

All this time, I was broken
Trying to find a love unspoken
And I know ya want the same love,
That I’ve fought so long,
The one we thought was wrong,
And you know I, oh I, need your love
‘Cause we can’t fool ourselves,
into someone else’s heart

(Bridge)
Let’s give up the fight
And embrace it
Before we lose the love we’ve found
I know you’re scared to death
But let’s face it
All we have is now

Pooping of wisdom

A little bird was flying south for the Winter. It was so cold the bird froze and fell to the ground into a large field.
While he was lying there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on him.
As the frozen bird lay there in the pile of cow dung, he began to realize how warm he was.
The dung was actually thawing him out!
He lay there all warm and happy, and soon began to sing for joy.
A passing cat heard the bird singing and came to investigate.

Following the sound, the cat discovered the bird under the pile of cow dung, and promptly dug him out and ate him.

Morals of the story:
(1) Not everyone who shits on you is your enemy.
(2) Not everyone who gets you out of shit is your friend.
(3) And when you’re in deep shit, it’s best to keep your mouth shut!

An eagle was sitting on a tree resting, doing nothing. A small rabbit saw the eagle and asked him, “Can I also sit like you and do nothing?”
The eagle answered, “Sure , why not.”
So the rabbit sat on the ground below the eagle and rested.
All of a sudden, a fox appeared, jumped on the rabbit and ate it.

Moral of the story: To be sitting and doing nothing, you must be sitting very, very high up.

A turkey was chatting with a bull. “I would love to be able to get to the top of that tree,” sighed the turkey, “but I haven’t got the energy.”
“Well, why don’t you nibble on some of my droppings?” replied the bull.
“They’re packed with nutrients.”
The turkey pecked at a lump of dung, and found it actually gave him enough strength to reach the lowest branch of the tree.
The next day, after eating some more dung, he reached the second branch.
Finally after a fourth night, the turkey was proudly perched at the top of the tree.

He was promptly spotted by a farmer, who shot him out of the tree.

Moral of the story: Bullshit might get you to the top, but it won’t keep you there.

 

Five Regrets of the Dying (by palliative care worker)

For many years I worked in palliative care. My patients were those who had gone home to die. Some incredibly special times were shared. I was with them for the last three to twelve weeks of their lives.

People grow a lot when they are faced with their own mortality. I learned never to underestimate someone’s capacity for growth. Some changes were phenomenal. Each experienced a variety of emotions, as expected, denial, fear, anger, remorse, more denial and eventually acceptance. Every single patient found their peace before they departed though, every one of them.

When questioned about any regrets they had or anything they would do differently, common themes surfaced again and again. Here are the most common five:

1. I wish I’d had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.

This was the most common regret of all. When people realise that their life is almost over and look back clearly on it, it is easy to see how many dreams have gone unfulfilled. Most people have had not honoured even a half of their dreams and had to die knowing that it was due to choices they had made, or not made.

It is very important to try and honour at least some of your dreams along the way. From the moment that you lose your health, it is too late. Health brings a freedom very few realize, until they no longer have it.

2. I wish I didn’t work so hard.

This came from every male patient that I nursed. They missed their children’s youth and their partner’s companionship. Women also spoke of this regret. But as most were from an older generation, many of the female patients had not been breadwinners. All of the men I nursed deeply regretted spending so much of their lives on the treadmill of a work existence.

By simplifying your lifestyle and making conscious choices along the way, it is possible to not need the income that you think you do. And by creating more space in your life, you become happier and more open to new opportunities, ones more suited to your new lifestyle.

3. I wish I’d had the courage to express my feelings.

Many people suppressed their feelings in order to keep peace with others. As a result, they settled for a mediocre existence and never became who they were truly capable of becoming. Many developed illnesses relating to the bitterness and resentment they carried as a result.

We cannot control the reactions of others. However, although people may initially react when you change the way you are by speaking honestly, in the end it raises the relationship to a whole new and healthier level. Either that or it releases the unhealthy relationship from your life. Either way, you win.

4. I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.

Often they would not truly realise the full benefits of old friends until their dying weeks and it was not always possible to track them down. Many had become so caught up in their own lives that they had let golden friendships slip by over the years. There were many deep regrets about not giving friendships the time and effort that they deserved. Everyone misses their friends when they are dying.

It is common for anyone in a busy lifestyle to let friendships slip. But when you are faced with your approaching death, the physical details of life fall away. People do want to get their financial affairs in order if possible. But it is not money or status that holds the true importance for them. They want to get things in order more for the benefit of those they love. Usually though, they are too ill and weary to ever manage this task. It is all comes down to love and relationships in the end. That is all that remains in the final weeks, love and relationships.

5. I wish that I had let myself be happier.

This is a surprisingly common one. Many did not realize until the end that happiness is a choice. They had stayed stuck in old patterns and habits. The so-called ‘comfort’ of familiarity overflowed into their emotions, as well as their physical lives. Fear of change had them pretending to others, and to their selves, that they were content. When deep within, they longed to laugh properly and have silliness in their life again.

When you are on your deathbed, what others think of you is a long way from your mind. How wonderful to be able to let go and smile again, long before you are dying.

Life is a choice. It is YOUR life. Choose consciously, choose wisely, choose honestly. Choose happiness.

A mail my dad send me

I am writing this to you because of 3 reasons

1.   Life, fortune and mishaps are unpredictable, nobody knows how long he lives. Some words are better said early.

2. I am your father, and if I don’t tell you these, no one else will.

3.  What is written is my own personal bitter experiences that perhaps could save you a lot of unnecessary heartaches.

Remember the following as you go through life

1. Do not bear grudge towards those who are not good to you. No one has the responsibility of treating you well, except your mother and I. To those who are good to you, you have to treasure it and be thankful, and ALSO you have to be cautious, because, everyone has a motive for every move. When a person is good to you, it does not mean he really likes you. You have to be careful, don’t hastily regard him as a real friend.

2. No one is indispensable, nothing in the world that you must possess.  Once you understand this idea, it would be easier for you to go through life when people around you don’t want you anymore, or when you lose what/who you love most.

3. Life is short. When you waste your life today, tomorrow you would find that life is leaving you. The earlier you treasure your life, the better you enjoy life.

4. Love is but a transient feeling, and this feeling would fade with time and with one’s mood. If your so called loved one leaves you, be patient, time will wash away your aches and sadness. Don’t over exaggerate the beauty and sweetness of love, and don’t over exaggerate the sadness of falling out of love.

5. A lot of successful people did not receive a good education, that does not mean that you can be successful by not studying hard! Whatever knowledge you gain is your weapon in life. One can go from rags to riches, but one has to start from some rags!

6. I do not expect you to financially support me when I am old, either would I financially support your whole life. My responsibility as a supporter ends when you are grown up. After that, you decide whether you want to travel in a public transport or in your limousine, whether rich or poor.

7. You honor your words, but don’t expect others to be so. You can be good to people, but don’t expect people to be good to you. If you don’t understand this, you would end up with unnecessary troubles.

8. I have bought lotteries for umpteen years, but I never strike any prize. That shows if you want to be rich, you have to work hard! There is no free lunch!

9. No matter how much time I have with you, let’s treasure the time we have together. We do not know if we would meet again in our next life.

Your Dad

 

Father & Son

I miss my family.

 

Sorry, Blame It On Me

As life goes on I’m starting to learn more and more about responsibility
I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out and apologize for things I have done
And things that have not occurred yet
And the things they don’t want to take responsibility for

I’m sorry for the times that I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
I’m sorry for the times that I had to go
I’m sorry for the fact that I did not know
That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
I’m sorry for the times I would neglect
I’m sorry for the times I disrespect

I’m sorry for the wrong things that I’ve done
I’m sorry I’m not always there for my son
I’m sorry for the fact that I’m not aware
That you can’t sleep at night when I am not there
Because I’m in the streets like everyday
Sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I’m so proud to call you my girl

[Bridge]
I understand that there are some problems
And I am not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can apologize for being wrong
Then it’s just a shame on me
I’ll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me

[Chorus]
You can put the blame on me [4x]
Said you can put the blame on me [3x]
You can put the blame on me

Sorry for the things that he put you through
And all the times you didn’t know what to do
Sorry that you had to go and sell those packs
Just trying to stay busy till you heard from Dad
And you would rather be home with all your kids
As one big family with love and bliss
And even though Pops treated us like kings

He got a second wife and you didn’t agree
He got up and left you there all alone
I’m sorry that you had to do it on your own
I’m sorry that I went and added to your grief
I’m sorry that your son was once a thief
I’m sorry that I grew up way too fast
I wish I would’ve listened and not be so bad
I’m sorry your life turned out this way
I’m sorry the FEDS came and took me away

[Bridge]

I’m sorry that it took so long to see
They were dead wrong trying to put it on me
I’m sorry that it took so long to speak
But I was on tour with Gwen Stefani
I’m sorry for the hand that she was dealt
For the embarrassment that she felt
Just a little young girl trying to have fun
Her daddy should never let her out that young
I’m sorry for Club Zen getting shut down
I hope they manage better next time around
How was I to know she was underage
Enter 21 you know the club they say
Why doesn’t anybody wanna take blame
For rising back out disgracing my name
I’m just a singer trying to entertain
Because I love my fans I’ll take that blame
Even though the blame’s on you [3x]
I’ll take that blame from you

And you can put that blame on me [2x]
You can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me

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Heard this sweet song on radio while I was driving one day. All of sudden it just touches my heart. I wish I could never say that to my loved one, no I doesn’t want to leave them alone, I am a family guy myself. As life goes on, work is getting busier and busier, and time I have to spent with loved one getting lesser and lesser. That’s always been my dream – no not the no time part, to get busy with my job, to get what I want, to chase my dream, the dream to climb to the top of the “sound mountain”, to do my time, earn my credibility, and to establish myself as one of the best at what I do.

I know it comes with a price to pay, it takes a lot of efforts, time, and hard work, and I might not be able to spend as much time as I like with the loved one. But man I keep telling myself, I have to spend as much time with my loved one as I could, because they are the one who cared and the one who I cared.

I love you daddy, mummy, and my sometimes annoying sis. Daddy has always been supporting for me ever since I decided what I want to do, right from the moment I finished my SPM and tell him about my dream, he is always there to support me to college, and now when I’m working, he provide me a car, and I do know that he loves me, a lot. Although I’m still trying to mummy what I’m doing, and I don’t actually think she fully understand what I’m doing, but I do know that she loves me a lot. And my sis? I always know that, she is always proud of me, *cough* even tho she never admit it. Hmm

And to that special girl in my heart, I love you. you do know that I’ll always be there for you, when my life get busy, I hope you will understand I can’t always spend my time for you. But I promise that, I will take my time out for you no matter what. Thanks for always being there for me.

My friends, college friends, Wendy, Marcel, just to name a few, it’s always nice to have someone you can talk to. It is so nice meeting all of you guys and thanks aunty Wendy, for being so helpful, gosh without you I think I’m lost (cause I don’t have GPS). I hope our friendship will last forever and you guys know that when you need me, I’m just a phone call away!

Cheers! …. with suet cha

Spreading love,

shaoweii.

Life Update #2

Hey peeps. Have been away from blogging for some time now. Getting busy with my new job, not many events happening but there are still some events going on. As you might know, its Hari Raya tomorrow, so 2 days of public holiday but I still choose to work on this coming Saturday for an open air event. All of the crews are on leave and that only left me and boss setting up and tearing down for the event. It’s a small one tho!

Anyway – life has been fantastic! Finally get my hands down on this Soundcraft Vi6

This baby is stunning beautiful, amazingly looking, everything is color coded, not too complex, you reach everything you need easily. This 64 ins and 32 outs board cost around 400k and well, it is of course more exciting to mix on than the Yamaha PM5D. But if you ask if this is the console I’ll bring to tour around? The answer is no.

It takes 2 mins to start up. It is not as stable as PM5D (Have you ever heard someone said, my 5D broke down half way during the show!!). Well it does on this board. They’ve encounter one incident where, the console just decided to restart halfway thru the song, well of course the audio is still going but you can’t do any changes to the audio. Luckily the console boot up just in time when the song ends.

I’m still waiting to get my hands down on Midas PRO6 (which I think boss is planning on selling this and get the PRO6) and the digidesign Avid Venues console !

Get to use Soundcraft Si3 as well. I can say that I’ve already know my way round both consoles, in like 30 mins? Well not to brag but I do get around digital boards easily and I found this particular board has very fast learning curve! (I think.. not sure if its the “study” I did before I actually power up this console.. go to the site, download the offline editor, or read the manual peeps! You’ll learn faster that way!) .

Can’t wait to mix on both boards tho Talk about mixing, Going down to Penang next week for one Astro event, and bringing down Nexo Geo-T arrays and Vi6 along. It’s gonna be fun

Yes.. I just have to do this Talk about getting rid of annoying ugly masking tapes on board. Haha

You see these AKG digital wireless microphone? This is the DHT 700 handheld

You see these DSR 700 receiver? Well it’s all digital and all of them are hooked up to the HUB4000Q you see on the top left corner. The HUB4000Q can connect to laptop straight with one Cat5E cable, or in our case, to a wireless router, and then using WiFi to access the receiver wirelessly. The system, or harman pro called them HiQnet integrates all harman pro digital products, JBL, AKG,Crown, all under single software called the System Architect.

When connected, my system architect 2.2 detected all the receivers (well actually it detects the HUB4000Q, which is connected to 4 receivers) and from the software, I can scan the RF for the venue, I can monitor the RF level, I can change name, I can change the frequency of the receive with my laptop. We’re also using the iPhone Apps (only to monitor anyway, cannot change stuff yet). The 1-click-setup automatically scan the venue, and picks the frequencies for each receiver so that nothing interfere with the system.

Well I’d wish if I can access the menu on the receiver with the software tho.

Oh ya,

I just have to do this, again!

Since Yamaha released the LS9 and M7CL editor for mac, i’ve been wanting to trying it out and I finally did!  Installed the latest Studio Manager and Yamaha MIDI driver (for mac), and update LS9′s firmware to 1.18 and I’m all good to go. Before all the magic can happen, we first configure the wireless router with DHCP and then plug one Cat5E to the console’s Cat5E port. I change the IP of the LS9 to 192.168.1.128 instead of the default 192.168.0.128 and it all just works perfectly! Now i can bring my mac around on stage to tune monitor wirelessly!

Heck, if I know how to setup network, I wanted to try controlling the LS9 in my home using internet as well! Haha

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Anyway went to Sepang Gold Coast last weekend with love. Check out the smiles on our face

Actually it turns out that it’s pretty easy to fly a kite..

Even I can do it.. I don’t see why anyone else can’t Haha

Gotta get a rest tho,

Moving out from Heritage Condo to Kepong (closer to my work place) tomorrow! Long dayy ahead !

Selamat Hari Raya!!

shaoweii.

One month.

I – really don’t know how to start. Did you remember when I told you I was busy halfway skyping with you 2 days ago? Aha. I was writing this. And I really don’t know how to start.

I know, I know, to you who reads this, “its only one month, not one year, not ten years!” But hey, saying and doing it is different. So if you know you’ll dislike this post then I encourage you not to click read more. Thanks !

The Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveller, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim,

Because it was grassy and wanted wear;

Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay

In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I kept the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way,

I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference

…Robert Frost

Random Rants #4

It’s been awhile since I posted something here. Before life gets busy (I’m damn free now, thanks to puasa month = no shows).

# 1 – Went to Universal Studio, Singapore with Wendy the pretty on August 1st.

Check out how we dress, just like we’re going to 1 Utama. We came out from Universal Studio around 5pm, not much rides yet, and some nice one still not ready, I enjoyed it tho anyway !

#2 – Went to Orianthi, KL Live with love.

Well I suppose you would like to see Orianthi, not me.

The concert is powered by 6 MeyerSound MILOs per side, with couple of Mina as front fills. Not sure about the sub, the whole band is going In ears, no wedges on stage except for opening act with Meyer MJF-212. Spotted a Digico SD8 for FOH and I suppose that’s a M7CL on mon ( not sure about the mon).

6x Milo. The venue has pretty low ceiling and the MILOs are hung pretty low.

And man, they don’t sound good ! Well, to be fair, they don’t sound as good! I’m standing right in front of the front fills and I wonder if they even turn the front fills on. I liked the drum, solid, full low end, liked the kick, the snare, the toms roll, and the bass. The bass was so so loud. Not sure if it’s from the amp, I don’t really dig the tone of the bass as well.

Orianthi has 6 Marshall cabs on stage, with the Marshall logo taped, (I think that’s because she’s sponsered by ENGL amps) and as usual, only one of them are actually in used. The reason why I said they don’t turn on the front fills is because, I can’t hear the guitars properly! All I can hear was a plain wash of noise, can’t hear the rhythm guitar properly and well of course I can hear it when they’re playing slow song (when the rhythm is playing clean, and Orianthi’s driven patch) , but when both guitar playing distorted, can’t really enjoy the driven electric guitar , solid, full, you know, tone?! It might sounds better way back because the stage is quite wide, and im standing smack center front, and in front of the front fill, yet, I don’t hear anything coming out from the front fill.

Lesson learnt tho, one of the reason I went to concerts is to listen and hear what could be improved. Definitely learnt something – To walk around the venue when you’re mixing !!

#3 – Got a full time job already !!! YES!! Finally !!! Starting my full time work next month, hopefully everything is good! Getting my mom’s car too, gonna drive it back from my hometown to KL soon. Seriously can’t wait to start the job !

#4 – Been re-watching all the videos i’ve edit. Here’s couple of them :

(Too bad wordpress cannot embed facebook videos now, so here’s just a link, if you know how to embed facebook video please let me know)

- Tribute to U2 Concert Tear Down day

- Tribute to U2 – Crew + Band : Desire

- Tribute to U2 – Marcel : I Will Follow

- Star sally (Girls power) live @ ICOM

- Crazy day in MML

#5 – Check out who’s talking now !

Pab Boothroyd, the stubborn old engineer (okay he’s not that old) who sworn by his old analog Midas Pro 40, the same guy who mixed AC/DC, the same guy who I never imagine seeing him mixing with digital board, is now on board with Avid PROFILE! Article Here : Digital Consoles on tour

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